The Wantingness

"...came along when I needed a savior...somebody already broke my heart" - Sade...as it played n the background following Beyonce's resentment Jade tried 2 b grateful 4 all the wonderful things Time was 4 her. As the bathtub filled & she poured n sme milk, Jade wanted 2 b happy w all he hd 2 offer & wait 4 this glorious future. As she poured a small glass of merlot & took a sip of moscato straight out the bottle, she tried 2 appreciate the few hrs he spent @ her place earlier that day. As she steppend the scoldin hot water filled w honey & oil & milk along w a few tea leaves, she wanted 2 bathe n glow of his love. As her skin turned red & she watched the steam rise from the wet portions of her body, Jade tried 2 erase the disgust she felt from havin 2 share her man w his wife. Nothin was mre important 2 Jade than the bond btwn man, woman & child & Jade tried 2 accept Times situation. As she puffed & sipped & soaked & John Legend sung about takin a lady named Gabrielle away, she wondered, y so many song & fairy tales about a love she'll never know? Jade wanted not 2b a pesk, anthr 1 of Times issues 2 deal w. She wanted 2 soak it all away & not let it get 2 her. She wanted not 2 feel sorry 4 Ariel. She wanted not 2 feel sorry 4 herself. She didn't wanna believe Time was just anthr nigga turnin her n2 the woman she didn't wanna b. Like her mother. Jade wanted 2 give excuse after excuse 4 the situation @ hand. She wanted not 2 talk & she damn sure didn't wan2 send that angry text message, I mean, text messageS....but she did. As the neo soul played she grew angered...Wondered how on earth she wld consifer this her 1st time fallin n love? Accordin 2 her fallin n love wld b real if it was right. How cld this b right when Time cldnt give her the love she deserved? All her patience & understandin turned 2 distrust & resentment & when she cldnt take the high road any longer. Jade snapped. Sent Time angry text after angry text: rantin & ravin about she deserved 2 b # 1. How she cldnt settle 4 being less than 4 any man...