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Took off work 2day 2 study & the library was packed. Surprised my grandparents who haven't seen me n ages. Made em proud n more than 1. Not just by poppin up, but havin such good new 2 report. I even turned dwn sme $. twice...Ima keep makin em proud 2. Got the oil changed & a new air filter put n. Lookin fly n huge blue shell earrings. Gold cuff bracelet, big stone ring on left & afrocentric wood multi colored bangles w small elephant ring on right. Black & gold gucci head wrap, orange tie @ the neck halter. Skinny jeans & black slouch boots w heart tie & the top of the calf. My make-up matches fall & its a beautiful day. My black fitted jacket the stops above the waiste compliments my shape as the orange halter hangs low. Hugs & rests ever so snuggly around my hips. Its a good look. A nice cloudy day & the sun plays peek a boo. A tazo chai latte & the new John Legend Evolver track 5 on repeat. Checked my grades, I thought I wasnt doin well bc it's been such a challenge. 2 my pleasant surprise, I'm still ahead w all A's. Gearin up 2 rep that burgundy & gold @ Sidelines 2nite w my gurl. Go skins!!!! She a Steeler's fan but boooooo, my Giants gave em the business last Sun & now they wanna go against my 6-2 Skins. My gurl & I been talkin shit bout dis game 4 a min. I can't wait. Bout 2 chill & shed sme mre tears n my wine glass. I put my foot n my mouth n a major way. If I was pressed I would email him the lyrics 2 Jasmine Sullivan's song I Need U. I aint goin there tho. Bc its all I actuality, i'd be over him b4 I even got 2 the bridge....(pause, curls lips 2 the side, sighs that honest sigh) ok maybe not :( Maybe I'm just talkin tough. It did giv sting a lil bit. Wanna call him & be like "Boi, stop trippin. Get over urself, u know u want dis."...but yeah right. Sike nah. But for real tho. I'm just goin get back 2 this bomb ass day. Have a great time w my gurl. Study a bit mre, maybe get the car cleaned. but my horoscope did warn me 2 stop grindin & just let free time b free time. So i'll just dance arnd 4 now.

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Knowing when 2 push, when 2 pull. Its an ever evolving skill. As I listen 2 my new music & reflect on my accomplishments. Goal driven, yet respectfully content. *Blessed* & grateful. Doin well. Pondering over how my horoscopes relentlessly mirror my truths. I am still ever shocked & somewhat amused. How is it I am such an open book? Idk. But life is great. Can't complain. The autumn has never looked so beautiful. I've always been a nature freak/tree hugger. Always appreciated the things simple. A stop & smell the roses chick. But I tell u as if my life depended on it: I'VE NEVER SEEN FALL LIKE THIS! The colors r rich & bright. They play w my aestetics, (tickle my fancy) & rival my make-up. Compete w the hues of my wardrobe, panties, & boots. The colors excite me beyond anything attainable. Nothing brings me more bliss, like this, than music, tea, bubble baths & Spring. I'm constantly doin new things. Experiencing pleasures of life beyond my wildest dreams. & 4 the 1st time evr @ night, I sleep:~) I dance n nature's song, 2 God's tune & my own beat. & its not a loved induced feeling. Like I hear the birds singing & sun shinin n his eyes. If that is the case. Then I have 2 say I'm n love w self. I, 4 the 1st time ever I knw what joy is. What peace is. What humilty & humbleness is. See everything I shouldve learned growin up, I've learned n an excelerated course that began Aug 4th. Now the semester is bout up, & I must say that I did one heck of a job. Graduation appraoches. Rests nestled n the horizon like a sunset (or rise...depends on the day). Although I can see it as I ride off n2 it. Still yet distant, the journey just begins. I'll b there soon enough. Learned a lot & its been fabulous. I spoil myself & l do it 4 me. All day er'ry day. I knw sme people r not goin 2 agree w me about certain things...but that matters not. Bc I'm n love w God & I'm n love w me. 4 the 1st time evr, I am n control. Njoyin the taste of joy, I bathe n peace. 4 the 1st time evr I can sleep. 8 yrs doin Yoga, just now able 2 breathe.

Tears n a Wine Glass

A day n the life. A piece of the mind. A small glimpse n2, a once upon a time. A day n the books. A day on grind. Sme time w the ladies & some shoppin 2 unwind. Repeat. & out 2 eat. On any given day. Dats how me & my ladies roll, we even talk shit bout football on Sunday. Laugh, grind, study. VIP. Pray. Press Play. Rewind & repeat; excercise & write, that's basically me. Until that busy fall day. Until we crossed paths. I now look over @ the clothes 2 fold. & 2 myself, quietly think back. 2 how u snatched!:~) & put on ur head that pair of pajama pants. I laugh. Reach over, & grab my wine glass. Sit back & grab the pad...& give n. 2 the pen. Like I did u. Tyrin b so cool. 2 Down right rude. It's so chopped & screwed:( & I'm 2 blame. U had my heart b4 I even seen ur face. I knw that day. Fate was out 2 play. When I 1st heard ur baritone. No accident u called my phone. We met & it was on. I got alarmed. & now instead of a future. U'll b a fallen leaf n 08's October. Sober thoughts, drunk off the memory. & I look n the wine glass 2 find a reflection of he. Intoxicating. The blending of chocalate & amber. Its a sweet escape, come back November. B 4 it began. & now the colors aren't as bright unless painted by ur hands. Music blasts, but n my mind, I hear only u. U were loyal & true. How cld I do that 2 u? Sad autumn, gets colder everyday. U kissed away the lonely, gave me butterflies n that special way. I'm just goin wait. It was coincidence. The wind blew u this way once, u'll find ur way back again. They say lightening doesn't strike n the same place twice. We defied the odds once, let's defy gravity 2nite. I sit & look over @ my perfectly pedicured toes & my manicured nails. My books & from the mall my latest good smells. I look over @ the door & remember how tall. How tender & how cool. Had 2 confess 2 the gurlz how I lost my cool. How I broke all the rules. & instead of a future. U'll. B but a fallen leaf n autumn of 08's past. Evr will I miss u as I sit & let the tears frm my pen, spill over n2 my wine glass.

Hmmmmm(tastes of controversy)

He stood 6"4, 240 lbs of normal...& yet so far beyond average. I was what he wanted & I just had 2 have him. We played it cool. Bc I made up the rules. He had strong ambition & a lot of Tattoos. A 6 yo & a past. He had a nature so pure & he knew how 2 make me laugh. He knw just how 2 touch. Knw just how 2 kiss. It was an instant. Rythym. His hands were so big. I, n his palms, a perfect fit. I was made 4 him. (pause) Or so I thought. His normacly made me nervous. By that blasted arrow, I was shot!! & instantly went n2 shock. Lightening struck. When he moved between my thighs. He looked n my eyes. He had me playin the bad girl role so good. I wouldn't cange a thing, even if I could. He stood. 6"4, 240 lbs of paid attention 2 detail. & well beyond average. We had great conversation & shared lots of affection. On my level, nah, he found his way 2 my deminsion. He applauded my mission. Understatement. He understood the type of man I wanted. He made me glad I waited. He kept up w me. Ran circles arnd my dreams. He was a real life story. He was so far beyond regular, he was extra ordinary. He was a tall talefairy. He was made for me. (Pause) He was beyond.Extreme. He admired my colors. He was stuck on me. He was above definition, how cld I b so cold &just make him leave. Silly me. & now I need him back. Aint goin out like dat!This cnt b. I can't breathe. Tell me it wasn't all make believe. I refuse 2 believe. U can't make me.The way he kissed me everywhere & everywhere n between. The way he made me wanna a suck dick like I nvr wanted to suck a dick b4. OR.The way he sucked my pussy lips & stood me up n the middle of the floor. Legs wrapped around his waste. What a saint wldnt do, 2 again sin taste?!? He was 6"4, 240 lbs of funny. He was like me. He really liked me. He was intrigued. By my style, admired my flow. I was...& now I just don't know. I spazzed & well...its up to fate & time. Its all his fault, he made me lose my mind. When his 6"4, 240lbs looked me n eyes as all 6"4, 240 lbs moved between my thighs.