two new journals aren't enough to hold all my thouhts of u. aren't enough words n the world to express just how much my love is true

teardrops. collect n my tea cup. cryin so hard for u. I begin to hicup. youre so far. I breathe u in so deep I begin to choke. I wanna scream. but the screams get lost n my throat. I rep u on my blog and n my facebook notes. the pages in my journals overflow. dying nside. can't live w/o you. hopin 2 eahother we will always be true. bein yours is all I wanna do. can't jog it away or walk it out. I'm n so much pain, just wanna scream and shout. I sob real loud & weep. blow my nose get myself together. REPEAT. defeated. by the evils of chance. In your arms I wanna dance. To the songs u sing to me. 4evr urs I will always b. We just ridin on love. Just livin our dreams. You showed me what real love means. I understand this is how it has to be. Doesn't make it any easier so hurry back to me. ur lovin is decadent. the seperation is hell sent. leaves the trail of bitter tears. if I say I love u 1000 times will the wind let you hear. will it carry my missing you across the sky to ur heart. we turned love from makin to an art. a sport. I'm ur lil quarter back ya ya dig. bc u all dat n the sack ya ya dig. be so more than honored to mother ur kids. I can't wait. ur love is a gift & u eat me n the most sensatiable ways. long enouh r never the days. we spend laughn & playin between the sheets. so good we only surface 2 eat. u live n me. 4 u I breathe. I'm pluckin pebbles n the river. peddles on the breeze. blowin kisses from here to Richmond on Springs eve. its like ur doin a bid w no chance of parole. I said it while we were kiddin but its no joke. I WILL WAIT FOR U. a princess n a tower. time is a dragon. come slay the monster. release me from this curse. w/o u I'm trapped n disturbia. ima spend this time gettn ready 4 u. makin it mo betta 4 u. my heart is yours. my words are true. I'm fittin to run away w u.spend my minutes pleasin u in so many ways. grantin ur every wish 4 the rest of ur days. even n the afterlife u'll be amazed. its all bc u love me so well....leaves me in a daze. under this spell shall we always remain.

One Black Rose One Red Rose. Two belly button rings

Dew drops at the tips of leaves and grass. I'm on the 50 yard line but can't complete the pass. Suspended in midthrust. u were pulled away from me and I'm just ridin on trust. the sun attempts to warm the chill on the air. I shut the blinds. see no sun when ur not here. The candles flicker and oils burn. a bath scolds but I can't find warmth. joy escapes me and sorrow remains. no pill or potion will do. my missin you, its an uncurable pain. Music plays and I hear not a single sound. a love like ours, others have never found. nor will some ever find. it breaks the laws of the continuim...nature it defies. Lost at sea, off to war. I stand in a window. wishing on a star. This is my message in a bottle. My smoke signal. My courier pigeon. This is my vow. my pledge of allegiance. I will wait til the skies turn green and the seas dry. I will wait for u love as memories haunt my mind. distance is an illusion. I can bend space and time. I can move water and make mountains fall. without u at my wings. I'm flyin no where at all. I'm achored, weighed and measured. Found wanting you. A fairytale I'm addicted to. I'm your number one fan, your biggest cheerleader. I've always wanted a man whose not just a soilder but a leader. you're not just any man. you are the protoype. you're a one to one, original design. classic make and model. u got my pulse racing...heart at full throttle. wanderin at full speed. lost and alone... u found me. Ur the essence of I like dawn and dew drops at the end of leaves. our love is beauty like butterfly wings. love it when to me you sing. No other man can be what you are...a dream come true...walkin poetry. No other can cause a shiver like the way you make me. I gotta go...i miss u so. all I do these days is sleep. I can't have u n my arms so of you I can dream.

So Good

Tall, strong and warm. Know just what to say. Sings me songs. Love Lullabies in my ear. He is all I c and its so crystal clear. Even when we were closer than close and ur deep inside. soft baritones u coo while u stare n my eyes. Makes the temperature rise. and instructs me to make it rain. We countin em out 1, 2, 20. Can't no other rank or compete. With the sinfully delicous ways u put it on me. kissin me from my head to my feet. and back up in between. wastes not one drop from ur naughty queen. tell me to mount the the throne that is ur face. compliments me on the smell, says he even craves my taste. double shots of orgams. straight up. no chaser. he loves me on top. says I ride like a winner. 1st place jockey. ride it til his eyes roll back and my name he screams. bend, twist, flip...smack smack. sweat drippin. we gigglin...make it messy. yeh just like dat. like the world is shakin. oops that's my legs. like the earth is quakin..oops just bumped ur head. agaist the wall. I'm climbin. diggin my nails in ur back. tryin to draw blood and u nasty. u like it like dat. we leavin hickies and war wounds...wearing the badges of our passion proudly n the streets. He's my Leonitus and I his Spartan queen. I make sure my head game trumps the tongue tricks he uses to tickle me. see this just how we roll. he's my own private slut. I'm his personal hoe...porn star stripper. we makin love amoung the stars. I'm his venus he's my big dipper. we do it for days on end. he's my lover and my bestfriend. He makes me happy and so without further delay. ima wrap this up and get back to thinkin of all these new ways. I should. keep givin him the kinda lovin onlya woman like myself could.

Dreamy World

From opposite ends. He was begining. She was the end. Cocked & ready, could not miss his aim. The stage was set. Lights, curtains, let's play. His approach was sweet. intentions so pure. he was cocky. about him she wasn't sure. another heatache she couldn't take. he convinced her she would nvr b replaced. she giggled her way. thru their 1st encounter. he was so smart, grounded and tender. he was a rekindlin spark to her dying ember. he delivered a love beyond any picture she could create. he was so enamoured and despite her attempts she grew the same. he held her close. erased her fears. told he was here to worship her and keep her near. she couldn't love him enough 4 that. he possesed all the others lacked. he would show her time and time again. a connection like theirs would never ever end. This was meant to last a lifetime and this is where it beins.

I Sat Up

I sit up late at night. Talkin to God. I tell him my secrets even though he can read my heart. I give offerings and he gives me serenity. I give him my all bc when I have nothin at all...he still blesses me. I tell him jokes, tell others he's my homie. when I'm at my lowest of the low and I'm really afraid. I see one set of footprints and I know I will be ok. I sit up late at night talkin to God and even though sleep escapes me. I know he is the light no other beacon can be. he is father time and mother earth. he is my shepard...i shall not want. The battle is not mine..so I will forge on. Continue to fight. Rage at night but sweetest joy n the morn. no weapon formed against me shall prosper. he is my rod and staff. I simply want to touch the hem of his garmet...be bathed n his laugh. drenched in His love. walkin His stride. I praise him n front of man so he will spare me n front of his Father. He is the alpha, the almighty, and omega. no matter what u call him, to something greater than urself bow. I am his instrament and I can't explain how. but I see his gifts, past and present...then and now. I ask Him y bout my past and what about my future. I dance w him in the car and cry to him in the shower. He made me the 5th element. the ninth wonder. I am all that He is...mans supreme power. Although its darker than its ever been. I don't know how itll work out, can't predict this end. I am His art. I'm as his tool. He is the leader of my free world. despite my sins his word is principle. no matter what I learn or where I turn. No matter the sin I drench myself in. I sit and talk to God. He is always there to wipe the tears. He is always there to listen.

Been so Long

Haven't put it down like this in quite a while. Been neglectin my audience. Had to drift. into the crowd. But behold my loves, the queen is back. Reclaiming her throne. I told you give me a minute and I'll be right back. What was destroyed has left much room for the new. These scribes are a gift, from my inner self to your inner you. There will be times when you won't agree. It cost you nothing to pay me no mind so put that on repeat. This is not simply meant for you to enjoy. It's here to make you think. I am not your enemy, but I will challenge you. I will hold my ground from here to the many moons. I am the stars that freckle the sky. I am the twinkle in a child's eye. It's not that I haven't wanted to conform to one style. It's just not my thing. Im too rambunctious, too wild. These words will one day be all that's left of me. I wonder if my fb notes has a max capacity. I havent blogged on my own site in quite some time. Once again the phoenix is back, taking back. what is mine. I built this here. A mighty empire. Shall not perish nor fall. They didnt take the city when they tore down it's wall. A rebirthing is in order. The plans in motion. Im taking it all. That shit is ash and Im lotion. Ive been fighting, traveling since conception. Im not going stop, so let go of that misconception. It's deception. If you think Im losing. Im winning this race. Success is the only option. I suggest you proceed with caution. My flames are burning bright. The goddess is blazing thru on a cinnamon star across your chocalate sky. It's divine. Like hey baby, this ms. lady...thought you was givin her the eye. But you crazy, its hazy. You already know Im too fly. Im the queen reclaiming what's mine. Stand back and behold. It's glow is worth more than gold. Locked cocked and sold. This art is one that doesnt fit into any mold. Im the freshest of the fresh, ya'll is gettin old. One young diva, one woman grown. And yeah I know folx, it been quite a while. But the lyricist is back. Enjoy the song. Promise next time it wont be so long