She Is

She is @ a loss 4 words. No amount of nouns or verbs. It rains when she cries as she watches just a few leaves fall. The hues are enguphing, so coy & so beautiful. Then its over, so as it lands. & so its over, juast as quick as it begin. We wait. 4 the next few leaves 2 start the show all over again. But there's no "take 2" on us now is it? Sweet darlin. 'Twas but a dream. He is w me n my dreams. I am his all, I am his queen. None can rival the peace he brings. Battle wounds left 'pon me. I still hear our battle cries. Its there n time, the sadness lies. The reason, I didn't fight it. Didn't try 2 hide. U cldnt c 'em commin dwn urs, so it I who cries. I didn't wanna play it tough. Didn't wanna cover it up w/ make-up. I didn't want 2 describe u n riddles & metaphors. This 1 I needed 2 feel. The joy & the hurt 2 remind me I'm real. 2 knw what its like to feel. U shoes, 1 will never b able 2 fill. U r...beyond anythin I can imagine. I wanted 2 keep u, fate said that's not happening. Its my own mouth that made things this way. Now a woman aint got much 2 say. Stay. Fly, fresh 2 death, Swagger on mars....i smile thru my work day, wow the lames w my charm. But if I aint got u then what is all 4? The books, the degress, certificates & all the money: Mean squat if u aint u aint here 2 love me Quickly. I'm wonderin if u goin do like all the rest & make ur way back. I dayum sure hope so, then fo sho I met my match. Take me 2 that place where only u & I knw. Where ur just so tickled by how my nails dnt match my toes. & u tell me I have sexy feet. u inspire, u desire, u admire me.That place where u play w my pj's & we talk while I'm n nothin but heels. But u listen 2 me. R place that's 2 treal. Take me out this misery, walk me back n. I want a do over, can we restart? Just 1 mo 'gin? I gotta shake u. Get u out of my system, but I feel we met 4 a purpose. T'was NO coincedence. I play thru my day as if u nvr mattered. I'm playin myself bc inside I'm shattered. Loney's the only company...blessed ur love no other love can be.

Guess I'm & U R

so come with me. Its just a phase but u'll love trip. I promise. Wink, wink/Kiss kiss. Idk when I got all Diary of a Phoenix. Dnt knw y now, all of sudden I dnt mind bein honest a exposing my flaws & all. Guess, I'm elevating 2 the next plain. & I guess as long as u check the scribes, u endulge n my voyage w me. Sit back & witness, the shift. The changes n the flow of lyrix. The rebirthing of the Phoenix. The ONLY definition that describes myself. The only 1 I & fate will alow 2 even attempt 2 describe me. Its natural. Not smething I just picked up 1 day & it stuck. Guess u could u say I'm intuned w my inner & past self. I know my purpose & vaguely remember a few of my past lives. I c signs & I am directed by the flows of chi. The life source that surges is so powerful, it scares me... @ times. I'm learnin 2 listen. Hard skill 4 me. I finally found my voice & man oh man, do I have ALOT 2 SAY. But I'm learning 2 b honest about my wants & needs. I'm learning 2 stand up 4 what I like & what I dnt like. When I'm challenged, I'm learning 2 fight a dirty fight n a respectful manner. Its giv cool man, its like:::breaks out n song::: I'm lookin at the man n the mirrorrrrrr. LOL. I'm changin & I like it. I'm excited & I got butterflies but I'm aint scared, I aint done...no matter what shawty Here I am. Thanks T.I, lil wayne & jayz, kanye, jeezy & Lupe& Bun B & Pimp C 4 rappin 2 me & Young Lloyd, Ciara & Beyonce & Kelis & Christina Aguerrilla, & Outkast, & anthony hamilton & john legend & cherice, dana & ms b & mr/mrs bruns, John, Nathan, KC Mecos & JR & T&P, Daniel & Grandmommy aka SuperChick...& since I'm ur twin &1st born grand, it only makes since, I'm superwoman. U came up w my name n fall, it represents me 2 fullest. All they way 2 our Cherokee Heritage. My love of color & my style. I might as well had been ur child. Its a stone & I'm def a jewel. OMG, grandmommy, thank u. My love of autumn is surely bc that's when God told u my name. U nicknamed me Sunshine, & the amount of reasons r the same. -lost page n my dairy