What was it like?

Do u remember falling n love 4 the 1st time? What was it like? Did u feel butterflies when u saw them? Did ur palms get clamy? Did ur heart race? Did u begin 2 sweat ever so slightly out of nervousness? Did u melt @ the mere touch or hug? Funny how the smallest gesture or facial expression can light up a room. A day or a person's outlook on life. I'm lost, somewhere between knowing & not. I'm jaded, caught between caring & not. Im, perplexed, challenged. & the ever confident Phoenix is now, well, not. I am but I'm not. C I've been slighlty thrown off my axis. Still rotating on course but I switched beats. Something has changed. The stars predicted a shift. How does 1 know? How does 1 let go & abandon a past 2 look 2 & embrace the future? I mean, is it supposed 2 b this unnerving? Y am I so deserving? Is love supposed 2 take u on every emotional rollercoaster ride? Is it supposed to feel this good? Is being n love supposed 2 be so right? See I'm no expert on love & given my track record, have never ever, ever ever experienced ginuine, real true love. It may seem hard 2 believe but as Chapter 23 comes to an end & chapter 24 approaches, I cnt help but take notice of the fact that I'm n no rush to love. But as love (dat bitch) does what it wants when it wants, I find that it has been chasing me 4 quite some time! Since Feb!...i finally stopped running. Out of breath, all toned, sweaty a glistening. I stopped 2 check my pulse & I found his rythym. Now I can't sleep, can't eat, my every thoughts of him. I am his rib & he is mine. Can I just see u every morning when I open my eyes? I'm n shock @ how much love & appreciation 2 people can share. Was ur 1st love real protective of u? How do u know if ur fallin 2 fast? What if doesn't feel like fallin? but more like flying, floating? Did they show u the world or share theirs? Did they take u n their arms & hold u real tight? Did u make laughter all day & love all night? bein n love 4 the 1st time, do u remember what that felt like?

The Curse

A ribbon in the sky @ dawn. A lacey ribbon @ night. Break out the whipped cream & ice. b4 I kissed ur lips I never knew what love tasted like. b4 the sun shines again, please let me see morning n your eyes. When we make love, time ceases to tock. When we inhale, my heart stops. I hear nothing but our sound. when. we. When we match eyes & r rythyms lock. Its as if, u know just where 2 taste me & just how 2 touch. I'm nsane for ur lovin & addicted 2 ur lust. Like waves crashing, its a rush. Honey drop, ur an aminal. Keep doin ur thug poppy, I aint stoppin u. U got me gigglin & goin crazy. I want 2 say ur name & I want u next 2 me. 4 days on end, my lover, my bestfriend. U make me wanna do it & do it & do it again. U deep from behind. Pullin my hair & makin me tongue kiss u. Smackin my ass! Damn baby I miss u. Sweaty sessions & play rough aggression. He knows better than 2 ask me any questions. Its so naughty & nice. Once is never enough, let's play all night. I'm breakin out the toys, a lil role play tonight? She's so wet 4 u my darling. Come feel her warmth surround you. I want 2 melt n2 u. Or moreso, u n me. I'm nthralled, & can feel that ur that much n love with me. I'm breaking out the ice. Whips & handcuffs tonight. Black lace boy shirts, trimmed in white. A ribbon in the sky, 2 lovers tasting love 4 the 1st time.

Y is it love?

Y is it love that u r so good me? Y is it love, u make me so happy? Y is it love that u all I think about? Y is love, u melt like chocolate n my mouth? Y is it love u look me n my eyes & hold my hand? While we make love & even when we dance? Y is it love, r memories dance on replay? y is it love, all this time did u wait? Y is it love u know just where ur hands 2 place. One wrapped my throat & the other on my waiste? Y is it love, that that u love the way I taste? Y is it love do we erupt like volcanoes? Y is it love that we remain pure as snow? Y is it love, u knw just what I like? Y is it love, I crave u most @ night? Y is it love u let me do what I want? Y is it love, were drama free & this is so much fun? Y is it love you make love to me like the seasons? I really dont want answers, really dont need 2 knw the reasons. Y is it love, u erase all sensibilty & logic? Just keep doin what u doin & baby please dont evr stop it. Y is it love that I love u so? Y is it love, it feels like u love me more? Y is it love, I c heaven n ur eyes? Y is that our love 4 eachother, the sun it outshines? Y is it love, the stars r not as bright as ur smile? Y is it love u got me goin wild? Y is it love, I wanna weep w happiness? Y is it love, I almost gave up on havin this? But somehown, love, I don't knw. U seemed 2 have restored my faith n love, thank u. Thank you love, even I can't understand, y u love me this extra special way. Come sit down & hold my hand. Rest ur head n my lap & let's start this game all over again.

Honey Moon

We've waited. Others we've dated. & yet fate wld have it. No1 else will measure up. You patiently chased. While I was wildin out, runnin wild. Took a wild 1 like myself 2 slow me down. Once so heartless & now all smiles. I was frozen w a heart of stone. U cut me open, escorted Princess 2 her throne. It's so amazing 2 me, the connection we share. Keepin my love locked down, aint goin nowhere. I'm so happy 2 have u, I'm all a glow, when u declare ur mine. Like wine & cheese homie, we gettin better w time. cnt believe I wasted all that time. Can't believe I'm urs, never expected 2 find. Now I'm stuck on u. By ur love I am consumed. U take me n ur arms & hold me. U wrap me up kisses. We make love into magic. Looky look @ dis shit. Laugh when I ask "whose ur bitch?" We like dat good ole Meth & Mary. Darlin ur all I need. We're twisted off the feelin. Caught up n the emotion. We n love w the lust, hand cuffs. & full exhibitions. He gives me the business...n case I 4got 2 mention. He's kinky like me & he's got my undivided attention. Ur own personal porn star, while we playin ur songs. its time 4 sexual healin, let's get it on. All day on the phone. Texts n between. U goin make a mad woman out of me. I'm lovin a boss, whose in love w a Queen. Look @ all that we've become. U always told me ur the 1. I'd love him like my own, ur 1st born son. I can't wait to meet him & see his little smile. Can't wait to where a ring, have ur name, bear our child. the mintues w/o u r an eternity. So glad 2 have this blessing. The days pass by longer than light years. U're 5 steps past amazing. It's kinda like being n love, squared. Its joy 2 the 9th power. Got me makin plans. Cooking, cleanin...peakin n on u & the little 1. Trips 2 the park & 2 church. Takes a real man, 2 recognize a woman's worth. I can't wait 2 c u. been w/o ur touch 4 2 long. I cnt wait 2 b back n the studio, crankin out beats 2 ur songs. u caressing me so soft & makin love all night long. Leaving no portion of my body unkissed. I never knew it could b like this.

Dear Lover

Hey u. Sitting here, just doin what I do best: lettin my words spill cross the page. Thoughts of u flood me, leaving me young & restless. I let the ink give way 2 what I can't say. Its new 2 me & it's a tad scary. I never thought i'd find what I was searching 4. & u've been here the whole time. How cld I not c it b4? I didn't notice, didn't pay attention. didn't really have a clue. but I'm thankful 4 ur patience. I'm 4evr grateful 2 God 4 u. Always cared 4 me, always there 4 me. U are love & u are made 4 me. Never judged me. always respected me & I'm glad u were persistent. I'm now so more than ready. I used 2 think I was close a time or 2; but I put it on erythang, nvr been n love b4 u. I write beneath the moon. I'm right bc of u. U just like me. Encourage my sexy & u make feel like a goddess. You admire my intellect & ur a fan of my art. We're a craft, under a spell. U can stop time & I can make every1 n the world disappear. The universe is r stage, its now all so clear. I can do anything & u adore me regardless. r passion, relentless. I'm grateful 2 god 4 u. My love is limitless. This is a blessing. Pray that's its boundless. Ur the chain that binds us. I'm down 4 whateva. No fear, no questions. I've learned my lesson. U've always been right here. I'm nvr leavin, I sware, I pinky promise. Long as u keep treatin me special & always remain honest. I'm learning so much. we on this rollercoaster ride. I'm ride or die but u knw me best, I prefer 2 drive. & we dnt have need 2 wine & dine. we're rich n love, lust....we laugh & rhyme. we make the most of r time. I'm his & he is mine. we r, created n His image. I used 2 think I was close a time or 2 but a love like this, I never felt it. Dear lover, hey handsome. Princess is missing u. I'm sending u love & hugs on this cold winter night. Sweetdreams & singing angels.

Friday Night, No Lights

I always complained about the stairs being 2 dark. Til dat night. I was a vision beneath his eyes. his song playin n the background. 2 the beat of slurpin sounds. it started w a joke. turned n2 a dance. he asked me a question & my lips said nothing. My body did the talkin. I was performin. & contortin. his gymnest. Alway real. This is not a test. He been on the mission, 4 quite sme time. He's on my mind. We were n the dark hallway. Doin things, w/o makin a sound. I was showin off while his song played n the background. his lips asked me another question. mine didn't answer, just undid his zipper. He asked me another question, I simply dropped it lower. He tried 2 walk pass me & brush me off. I made him wipe me down & kiss me soft. as I shoved him up against the wall. his tongue. flung. me. another question. I didn't answer. just dropped it lower & undid his belt. we tradin places. the ice n his ear, I melt. blue flame, white hot. he felt. compelled. 2 ask me, yet anthr question. My lips didn't say a word. just swallowed his erection. I make the rules & he knows how 2 follow directions. he presses my buttons. & I'm so undone. soon as I stopped wonderin'. dats when I realized what was happenin. I'm flowin. he rappin. she writing. he spittin. we playin & funnin. we grindin. goin swag 4 swag. we grindin...match him grand 4 grand. & I'm got my own...but he taught Miss Independent how 2 share. He put the keys 2 his heart n my hand. I aint goin no where. I got dis. & I tell u how u I know. he gives me what I need & the stars tell me so. he my baby & I dnt care who knows. I'm his empress & we makin a show. a movie. flashing... lights. I was showin off n the dark stairwell. I'm what he likes. he just like me, kiss & tell. we flicked on the black light & he made sing n his studio. We was makin music, up against the foam. He got me on his microphone. & its still sore. from the night b4. I'm addicted from now & evermore. I always complained bout the stairs being 2 dark. Til I let him catch me & I gave him my heart.

*switch beats*

it was a diff tune. beyond what I was used 2. He was 2 cool. We was 2 rude. My fool. I was. & now am I 2. r we? 2 cute! & he likes 2 show me off. I'm Ms. Boss. & I got it. from my own. 2 the keys 2 his whip. We pullin. hair & its real thick. & long. Strippin & given/gettin head. 2 his very own song. Soundtrack n his buildin. R very own song. Been singin & hummin his tunes. but we not speakin on it. humble & not tryin 2 b rude. We ride smooth. We tryin 2. But we ahhhhh & ooooooh & make as much noise as we want 2. My something sugary when I need something sweet. He's my star & I'm his queen 2 b. He calls me princess & I...am...speech...less. Breathless. Catch me. Its the. only 1 who can make me do the things....that shouldn't b. I am Mrs. Boss...2 sir Reep. So high, we fly. Thanks 2 da most high. its live. & n ur stereo. His personal stripper, staring role. on the video phone! He makes me moan. Its not the false. But check the true. He's n love w a diva & I'm diggin the dude. & its all 2 innocent. Not 2 mention. we aint tryin 2 b rude. it heaven sent. We get it n. when. we...want 2. Chocolate drop, cocoa sprinkles. the sugary sweetness...as the beat swells. The heat leaves a smell. & its. r scent. n the air. bite me here...smack her there. its so rowdy & so unfamiliar. its so unfair...the games r over. & as we simply press restart...what others cnt interpret. n r our eyes: behold. art. how do u define? press slow dwn. he on fast forward. they press replay...then rewind. divine. this time hold fast. think we got it right. make it last. we laugh. dnt mistake the hype. but believe I'm just his type..goin good good w all my might. he said i'd make the perfect wife. I'm frestylin. 2 his beats. he's a mucisian. I'm his queen. & he calls me princess. his very own personal freak. R very own personal fuck fest. The Lady & Sir Reep.Call me. Mrs Boss. Spit, swallow it raw. Restless. young & gunnin. blazin. this here is amazin. its r song & I aint tryin 2 b rude. he loving a diva & I'm diggin dis rapper dude.