What was it like?

Do u remember falling n love 4 the 1st time? What was it like? Did u feel butterflies when u saw them? Did ur palms get clamy? Did ur heart race? Did u begin 2 sweat ever so slightly out of nervousness? Did u melt @ the mere touch or hug? Funny how the smallest gesture or facial expression can light up a room. A day or a person's outlook on life. I'm lost, somewhere between knowing & not. I'm jaded, caught between caring & not. Im, perplexed, challenged. & the ever confident Phoenix is now, well, not. I am but I'm not. C I've been slighlty thrown off my axis. Still rotating on course but I switched beats. Something has changed. The stars predicted a shift. How does 1 know? How does 1 let go & abandon a past 2 look 2 & embrace the future? I mean, is it supposed 2 b this unnerving? Y am I so deserving? Is love supposed 2 take u on every emotional rollercoaster ride? Is it supposed to feel this good? Is being n love supposed 2 be so right? See I'm no expert on love & given my track record, have never ever, ever ever experienced ginuine, real true love. It may seem hard 2 believe but as Chapter 23 comes to an end & chapter 24 approaches, I cnt help but take notice of the fact that I'm n no rush to love. But as love (dat bitch) does what it wants when it wants, I find that it has been chasing me 4 quite some time! Since Feb!...i finally stopped running. Out of breath, all toned, sweaty a glistening. I stopped 2 check my pulse & I found his rythym. Now I can't sleep, can't eat, my every thoughts of him. I am his rib & he is mine. Can I just see u every morning when I open my eyes? I'm n shock @ how much love & appreciation 2 people can share. Was ur 1st love real protective of u? How do u know if ur fallin 2 fast? What if doesn't feel like fallin? but more like flying, floating? Did they show u the world or share theirs? Did they take u n their arms & hold u real tight? Did u make laughter all day & love all night? bein n love 4 the 1st time, do u remember what that felt like?