Color me Music

Color me a song. Paint me n ur fav shade. From dusk til dawn & all thru the following day. Drench me n ur rhythym. Drown me down 2 the core. Paint me a song, play it evermore...Line 4 line LL Cool J's new joint...all me. I listen 2 the lyrics & watch the video & think this can't be!!! Raheem D's woman 2 Talib's Hot Thing. Young Steff must've read my mind when he wrote professional. E Badu sings me prayers via telephone. Tamia reminds them how I'm too grown 4 that. Ashanti help me find the words 2 make the declaration & Robin Thicke's evolution...is still 1 of my favorites. Floetry lays me down, while Omarion plays me the music 4 love. Crissette M, tell me again, how u can't believe he spoke 2 you. The girl coos like a dove.Give me dat Usher, J holiday, & Roy Hargrove 2. W/ an ever changin style like lil Aguilera, the class of the lady J. Scott. I got Beyonce's lil something extra. I own it like Rhianna. Sean Paul's spunk. & Diddy's...whatever he's got. Blazing like the late Aaliyah, yes like fire, HOT! I got priss down pack like Mariah & poise like A Keys. I got punk rock on lock like Lenny Kravitz & swagg that a rival Kanye. From Boston 2 FA, Canada to LA. I'm the outkast...on repeat from begininng to the end. Anthony Hamilton gots that southern thang I like & Dream will be quick to tell you I'm a ten. Fabs a movement by himself but a force when I'm with him. Marvin, Al & Marie Tina. Find me smewhere n between. A lil R.Kelly ( I like the music, not the man. Dnt b mad @ me!) I need a lil K Cole to get me by. A lil Lupe Fiasco to tickle my 3rd eye. Prefer some Rafeal Saadiq, the unplugged house of blues. I like alternative music even the latest song from Jewel. I'm a lil rock & roll, jazzy, an eclectic urban blend. Play me. I'm ur favorite song. Can't get me off ur mind. So play me again. Play me, ur fav song.Black magic woman.I'm music, every hue. I color with every crayon in my box. Soul, pure, untainted and true. I'm am the lyrics, the beat, the muse. Come color me a song but first, what flavor are you?

Sexy is as sexy does

Airport. Chargin up the celly 4 this long as ever flight. Dawn approaching. Hope I can catch all types of rainbows since the ride here was ugly...rain, rain, rain. I love the rain...as long as I don't have drive in it. Anywho, I'm sittin here w/ a slight attitude. My VS body spray got tossed...exceeded the 3.0 oz rule. Its my own fault but hey, its 2 early n da am 2 b addin up ounces. I mean really! Had the nerve to compliment me in the process *as if*. So I'm waitin 4 take off (weird guy starin me down, but n e waayyyy) & I got 2 thinkin. What is sexy? Is it defined by swagga(er) or is it more than just puttin on heirs? I'm sure u ask 100 people 2 define "sexy" & u'll get that many diff answers. Sure we come 2 a common agreement but beauty is n the eye of the beholder. My approach 2 sexy is like that of my approach 2 food. Variety & moderation. Try anything once & have fun w/ it. Njoy it. Play w/ it. My style is limitless, boundless. Daring, no matter what the selection. Own it. So many people try 2 keep up w/ the latest styles & fashions. *booooo* Be a trendsetter! When others can't comprehend, politely explain they just weren't meant 2. Sme do it 4 it attention. Women like myself, do it 4 personal pleasure. There's a selfish gratification from handwashing ur 1-of-a-kind pieces. There's something soooo blissful about a loong bath w/ mail, oils, bubbles & fruit. Nothing compares 2 a great pedicure. See sexy is taking real good care all the way 2 the details. Toying w/ accesories. Its all quite entertaining really! Attention, like everything, is bad when its tooooo much. Learn how to command the respect & deflect the wrong crowd. {Awww, its the softest sunrise} Knw when a gf is bein fake w/l ill intention 2 harm u or your reputation; worse yet try 2 get n the way of ur future bc she wants 2 b u. Be able 2 knw when a man is interested in what's between your ears vs what's betwn ur legs. Sure anyone can tell u, ur sexy, pretty, a goddess, the best, a queen. Its up 2 u 2 determine who & what u r. By ur own definion

Single on Purpose, With Purpose

The yin and yang of being single is simple. Like lady justice, love is also blind. There is a harmony suspended in a balance. An axis rotating on real versus make believe. There is a patience in waiting for the right one. There is suspense and slight anticipation. There is a yearning. Often fueled by frustration. The waiting can be rather bitter sweet. One has all the pleasures and freedoms of not having to commit. Come and go as you please. Wear and do what you want. On the flip side, one also has to deal with driving home alone or not having anyone in particular to share good news with. No one who misses you and craves your touch. No one to rub your back after a long hard workout. Or massage your shoulders when you have had a rough day at work. In the same token, no one to nag you when you are trying to write or create art. No one to keep you tucked in the covers when you should be off jogging. No one to interrupt the flow or interfere with your game plan. There are some who chose to be single, not because they set their standards too high. They just know what they like and refuse to settle for less. Why settle for the hustler on the block, or the one with no goals, dreams and aspirations, when you can patiently wait for the young professional? See the young professional is focused and driven, takes an extra special something to catch their attention. Then keep it. They take exceptionally great care of themselves. They spoil themselves every chance they get. The young hustler is used to getting instant results, attention span is flighty, not to mention...what kind of future can one really have a lost soul? People have grown up. Women are beginning to find the allure and the tease more appealing than the display. They are back to being ladies and not just objects of desire. Men have pulled their pants up, put on a belt and got a shape up. The up and coming generation is more about style and class than drugs and gangs. The 20 somethings now a days are about something. Men and women alike are more rooted in their goals and faith. The caliber of single has evolved. We single, are single by choice. Not default. It's not that we are lonely, but we don't want to keep perpetuating the cycle of baby mamma's and baby daddy's so we are making the effort to be a little less rushed. We are taking our time. Feeling each other out. Discovering what our hearts, minds, and souls truly need versus what we may want for a few weeks or months. Becoming increasingly more aware of the consequences of our actions. We saw the mistakes of the generations before us and choose to protect ourselves. Core values are strong and so we make the effort to discontinue this cycle. It's not as if we are cursed, helpless and can't do better. We are awake and chose to act as such. Knowing right from wrong and choosing right before it all goes wrong. It's not that we keep meeting horrible people, and going on hell dates. Sure that's a small factor, but it's deeper than that. Single are single and happy. They know exactly the type of make and model of the person they desire to share themselves with. It's no more about just being with someone because they like you and you feel obligated. It's more about self respect and preservation. People are thinking long term. Being a tad more selective in who they choose to build relationships with, sleep with or even hang around. The young and single are more growing more conscious of their behaviors. They are thinking twice about who they exchange numbers with or even socialize with on the web. Social networking has become huge and so your friends are more and more a reflection of you. The young women are reverting to a higher standard that has been lost. The men are encouraging this. And vice versa. Young men are becoming increasingly involved in community and church. Young people are determined to succeed and so sometimes relationships take a back burner. Personal relationships. See it can be hard for some to attend church, bible study, work full time, with a part time gig, work out, hang with friends, spend time with family...etc, etc, etc. Where is there room for dating when you are trying to take over the world. Others are so determined to conquer that they don't even notice when someone has taken a liking to them. Perhaps they have taken a liking to someone else but don't know how to make the time to express it. Other times, those of us that are on a mission, don't feel like there is anyone else on our level who can keep up. I once spent a whole date talking about portfolio, 401k, stock, budget analysis and so on and so on. Only to learn two hours later at the end of the date, not only did he not know what I was talking about whole time, he didn't have enough to cover the bill. The bill that only consisted of two drinks BC he told me as I was ordering he didn't bring enough for food. So I ended up paying and wasting my breath. No why dis happen? I didn't do a careful enough screening prior to going out with this gentleman. It is not is fault, he is not my type. Now, I'm at a place where dates like that just won't happen. Why waste the time? Sure this was just one date of many to come, but I know people feel me when I say, I am simply waiting on something new. Something different. I think now a days, the young, single, success-driven can relate. As I strive to be a better person, I can only surround myself with people like me. Opposites attract, but more in the sense, I'm into holistic medicine and he is an astronaut. I'm a Yoga Teacher and he is a Rocket Scientist. Not in the sense, I'm flying out of town on business and he is on the block, trappin. NO no no no. That's not even goin down. I am just saying. I am single and will be until God delivers me a man who can match me prayer for prayer, goal for goal.

Oh Yeah

Oh yeah, she wasn't playin when she said she was on her grown woman BI. Nah, lil miss wasn't jokin when she said she was cuttin 'em all off. See they thought this lady was jivin when she said for some reason, she is havin the pull to do less & less smokin. Yeaaah, they thought that the youn diva was just feelin herself when she said she wanted to lose weight not just to look good, but for good health. See some misinterpret the body language when she declares how she's a few steps above it. For anyone can be attractive but beauty rests within bein different. Some say the powers she possess are just coincidence. Let them think want they choose says the young sourceress. Tapped into an unknown resource or simply blessed. Touched by angel or cursed w/ the gift. For all those who knowhati'm talkin bout...it ain't ez bing different. She is the yin & the yang. The star she rode in on ensures an eternal reign. She looks @ u and u hear angels sing. A light she brings. Grow divine young princess.Take your place as Queen. Against all odds & even though its hard to believe. She, a most precious art form that goes unseen. She got dat magic but she works its behind the scenes. See they were mistaken when they saw only the temptress. They couldn't see down to the soul of the empress. They couldn't wrap their brains around the fact she was above the rest. They were cold to fact she was the epitome of excellence. Destined for greatness. People were often mistaken by the walk, couldn't decode the talk. They couldn't understand the vision. But care did she not, the lil rockstar royal duchess continued on her mission. With an heir of class. Hip hop on her heels and the blues in her bag. Grabbing the attention of many. But ever humble by nature. Behold this nymph and all her pixie like features. Woman. Black magic and perplexing. An enigma, can't define her. Purpose driven its a given...nah lil miss priss aint fakin. Now is the time, these are the days. Behold a fire that walks and breathes. She will conquer. Welcome to the next chapter.

Centinnial

This is my 100th article/post/entry. I can't believe it. I would like to thank everyone who has checked out my site, clicked on my ads, and left comments. You guys make it possible. Seriously. I would be nothing without my readers. Thanks, a thousand times thanks. ::::Sending big hugs and singing angels your way:::...Let's recap shall we. A lil trip down memory lane. I discovered the whole "blogging" thing from attending dance class. I used to comment on theirs all the time until I decided the easiest way to begin my career in Journalism would be to start my own blog. Hoping to get published in a magazine of newspaper, I wanted my own column. With the dream that the column would lead to a book deal. My fav show ever is Sex and the City and I love how the lead character took her passion for writing and turned into her livelihood. It led to so many amazing opportunities in her life. The light bulb flicked on and it was like oohhhhh; here lies the blueprint. And even though it was a fake life on a T.V. show, it mirrors the life I want for myself (to some degree...) So I blogged and Sexy Suburbians was born. Not knowing the direction I wanted it go...I floundered around in the beginning and didn't really think it would be my catalyst to success. I wanted it to be, but I didn't really believe in myself, my skills, my abilities or my potential for greatness. However, with the right push, I journeyed further on my path to excellence. I journeyed deeper into self and found God (OMG OMG OMG OMG I just got my business cards...like right now, just this second, just after I typed in that last sentence...they were placed on my desk. I chose the design/layout. The intern asked me to choose from a few options and I gave the OK for what IIII wanted. It was an idea I pitched before and it got shot down...pitched again by a coworker it became all the rave, oh the best idea ever...well even without getting credit, I got the satisfaction of getting what I wanted...which of course is more about the good of the company than it is about me...but idea came to life and I got to chose what I wanted...man all glory be to GOD *insert Amen here*.) I then wanted to get the nerve to start attending spoken word and poetry readings. I am so shy when it comes to the spotlight, but I can tackle business like no other. It's when it's me, raw and uncut do I feel the pressure of performing above and beyond. But anywho, back to the blog. I wanted to venture out to these places but didn't want others to steal my work in an attempt to get noticed. So I went and got copy written... oh yeah, oh yeah. I went and made myself official. So now all copy written and everything, I was ready to journey into MYSPACE. I got that set up and was like OK...more people have the opportunity to read my work, but they can't take and make it their own because I'm official...oh yeah oh yeah. So I tackled the myspace monster and as of last Thursday, I went ahead and made the plunge into FACEBOOK. So now even more people get the chance to see my work. The cool thing about myspace and facebook is that it sends updates to your friends. So when I post, they know. Right away, they know. So OK OK, here is the extra extra cool part...you ready? I set up the mobi blog thing. (Sorry I'm an artsy type of chick, don't get with all the comp lingo or proper technological term, but I imagine you can keep up with slowness...) So I can blog from my cell and it post to this site...this site feeds it to my myspace and facebook page automatically and almost instantaneously. Then my friends get a message that I have posted a new article. Hot Dog! Babygirl is makin moves... I dare you to keep up;-) Fittin to get a business card designed for the blog but I am working with Magazine that I will have to have a card for and I am wondering how the founder of the Mag would feel about me doing double sided cards. One to promote the Mag and that company and the other side for my blog. I don't know how I feel about having to hand out two separate cards...but I will. With no problem, oh yesssirr, I most certainly will.

Now about this Magazine I am working for. It's a company that will uplift the community in it's entirety. The metaphor the young founder and president used was that of a rising tide...when the tide rises so does the boat, so does everyone on the boat. An uplifting if you will. Young and old. We have no set demographic...we branching out before we even take off. But seriously, it's a small group of young professionals who are determined to do some pretty amazing things. We are small but mighty. We have a vision, we have a plan and we have the will and determination to put it into action. There will be short films, a beauty pageant Spring of 09 and of course the magazine. We will be out in the community for good and bad. We will be on the scene in the face of tragedy. We will be in attendance at events like "For Sisters Only" and other things of that nature. We will also host some positive events like marches, block parties, pool parties, places were local artists can get "put on" and major artists can give back. We are going to do so much, so be on the look out for us...change is a commin' ;-)"Cuz we takin OVAAAAAAAA...one city at a time." We are in the process of planning our first fundraiser so be on the look out for info. I expect all you who even take a peak a this blog to attend. It's local and the address will be really easy to find.

Success is a habit...get like me. Meditation and prayer is habit...put it in the air. I am so blessed. As I sit back and watch my dreams unfold, I am awed speechless by God's awesome grace. He is phenomenal and I can't even find the words to express my joy. I do all this and still find time to go on business trips for my full time job. My career(s) are moving at such a fast pace, I just hope I can keep up. "Never would made it, without you."

Star

Totally n 2 astology & numerology. Not 2 mention that was my alias when I used 2 dabble n the distribution of uhhhhm ya know. So anyway, 2day I write 2 u n awe of 1 particular star. Something about the way it speaks 2 me @ dawn. Like it shares w/ me all its secrets & it gives me a personal liberation. I wake w/ its rise feeling almost breathless @ the metamorphisis I am privelaged 2 witness. I say my morning prayers & ponder. I am ready 4 love but why have I been embarrassed 2 admit it? I wonder how many other young, sucessful ladies are out there screamin independence when they are really lonely? Or not even that but how many are so focused they looked from their fab careers, degrees & goal planning, only 2 find no1 there 2 take u the airport...sure u'll shuttle 2 & fro but damn...still no1 to kiss u @ the gate...let alone accompany u. See I thought admitting 2 wanting 2 b n love would make me less of a woman...u know? Or somehow ungrateful for all I have. That is not the case...it would be koo' 2 have a guy 2 share with it. Now what is my prob, is the older I get the higher my standards. The caliber of acceptable man evolves. No I have set the bar unrealistically high but I know a few good men. But I'm not interested in my friends that way, they just help reinforce why I won't settle. I had all these rules growing up & it kept me pretty sheltered. I let them go & it made my life very unsettling. Now on middle ground, w/ an inner light that burns brighter than the sun. I sit in my tower of clouds & wait 4 my star. Patiently breathing n 1 day after another. Its just I roll over sometimes n these huge hotel beds & its like...man I'm not goin be this hot forever...ok maybe I will but seriously. Anything can happen & all this wholesome buttery goodness will go unnoticed. Shame bc I think I have a rather cute shape & even more beautiful mind, not 2 mention the brains that r the cherry on top. & please don't get me twisted...by no means am I looking for a man or Mr. Right. I am simply ready 2 begin my happy ending.

*Deep Breath*

Anchored 2 the wall via charger, I'm takin what I feel 2 b my latest step towards sucess, on a test drive. Feels good 2. Laid back n the princess chambers wondering not much about the chaos outside the walls of my tower. I let my r & b heal my neo soul & the candles do 4 me what nothing else can. I am n deep thought about my upcomming businnes trip. Having traveled more n the past 4 months than I have n my whole life, I say the flight to LA is killer. killer!...like the longest flight ever. However, I know this not 2 b true...but it sure does feel like it sometimes. I am thrilled I land a day early. This time, I will see something other than the hotel! I'm going 2 take a lot more pix this time 2. I thought bc it was business, it would b innapropriate 4 me 2 ask 4 pix. Idk why I didn't consider all the portfolio strengthening aspects those pix may hold!! Ahhh lessoned learned. C'est la vie. Anywho, I am also thrilled about the fact I will get 2 design my cards 4 this trip. hmmmmm Which reminds me...I will b n discussion about my business cards for this very site this week as well. Wow. I'm telling u folks, I've dreamed about stuff like this but never expected it 2 unfold when it did. & w/ such force. & such frequency. Its like I dreamed about it & *POOF* woke up all that & more!! Phenomenal would b an understatement. I "found myself" or I know my purpose....found my calling. The blessings received r more than anything I could've ever prayed 4. God is good. Now I aint got fancy car & I live at home due to bad decisions I have made in my past. I have 2 start ALL THE WAY OVER from below rock bottom. & it kinda bites bc I was all the way on top. Hustled like a mofo 2 get there 2, & 2 lose it ALL!!!!! 2 have fallen from grace & then b down but; but then 2 slip even further, under dat; *whew* its a wonder I made it this far. Dats OK tho. insert *ommmmm* here. Wldn't be nothin w/o God that's 4 sure. & Yog 2. & i aint scared 2 say it. Ask me again & ill tell u the same...just sharing a tid bit about the author.