Wednesday, July 23, 2008

Star

Totally n 2 astology & numerology. Not 2 mention that was my alias when I used 2 dabble n the distribution of uhhhhm ya know. So anyway, 2day I write 2 u n awe of 1 particular star. Something about the way it speaks 2 me @ dawn. Like it shares w/ me all its secrets & it gives me a personal liberation. I wake w/ its rise feeling almost breathless @ the metamorphisis I am privelaged 2 witness. I say my morning prayers & ponder. I am ready 4 love but why have I been embarrassed 2 admit it? I wonder how many other young, sucessful ladies are out there screamin independence when they are really lonely? Or not even that but how many are so focused they looked from their fab careers, degrees & goal planning, only 2 find no1 there 2 take u the airport...sure u'll shuttle 2 & fro but damn...still no1 to kiss u @ the gate...let alone accompany u. See I thought admitting 2 wanting 2 b n love would make me less of a woman...u know? Or somehow ungrateful for all I have. That is not the case...it would be koo' 2 have a guy 2 share with it. Now what is my prob, is the older I get the higher my standards. The caliber of acceptable man evolves. No I have set the bar unrealistically high but I know a few good men. But I'm not interested in my friends that way, they just help reinforce why I won't settle. I had all these rules growing up & it kept me pretty sheltered. I let them go & it made my life very unsettling. Now on middle ground, w/ an inner light that burns brighter than the sun. I sit in my tower of clouds & wait 4 my star. Patiently breathing n 1 day after another. Its just I roll over sometimes n these huge hotel beds & its like...man I'm not goin be this hot forever...ok maybe I will but seriously. Anything can happen & all this wholesome buttery goodness will go unnoticed. Shame bc I think I have a rather cute shape & even more beautiful mind, not 2 mention the brains that r the cherry on top. & please don't get me twisted...by no means am I looking for a man or Mr. Right. I am simply ready 2 begin my happy ending.

7 comments:

JStar said...

Amen to that...Yea we scream independance because we are tired of what we have been getting....Would rather be alone than to deal with that drama and BS...but yes we all need to be loved...Lonley nights waiting for the right man to come along. We raise our standards because we are tired...but yes we can raise them too high but hey if a man isnt willing to jump that high for me because I am worth it than he isnt worth it...I'd rather be alone...Dreaming about him...I feel this same way every night...Tear drops staining my pillow case...Waiting for him to come and find me and sweep me off of my feet...Will he ever reconize me? But settling is out of the question...I'd rather be alone than settle...

ndcush said...

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The You Axis said...

To Jen, I knew you'd get it. I too would rather be alone. Because I attend church regulary and get the opportunity to travel for business. I meet alot of good men. I know that there is a good one out there for me, but I ain't real press for him to get here. My focus is bettering myself as a person, as a woman, of God and noble character. I have alot of self improvement to do. So any man I meet will have to be in a constanct state of growth as I am. Basically I am waiting for the man who can bring what I bring or better. My standards are just high enough that I am not settling for just any ole thing. Yeah, I choose me any day. I too would rather be alone and happy, journal and Bible in hand, than stressed out by a guy. It's just that success doesn't hold you at night...nor does it pour your tea in the morning. But God gave me all that I am grateful and I wouldn't trade even the tiniest piece of what my life is now, just to be in love.

Thank you AGAIN for recommending this book AGAIN. However, for some reason you might be mistaken by my mood or outlook of being single. I LOVE IT. I actually enjoy being single very much. Every now and again, (not that often) I just want certain things. But the thoughts are fleeting & do not occur that often. I am very much content with my life as is. It has a rhythym, a pulse that I can barely keep up with...I highly doubt a man will be able to. Also, I am not the average woman...so therefore the caliber of man I want...well I am sure I am a long ways from him finding me. I have NOOOO desire to date or engage in casual sex. Also, (just an fyi) I prefer NOT to read books on being single or directed toward single people. I just don't like them. They simply don't move me. I am just not interested. However, I might check it out for it's scriptures...but then I can just keep reading the Bible for that. Uhhhmmm thanks again for the input, but Im good off dat one. I pretty much like how I tackle single...from my own perspective and by writing this blog. I know in my heart that God is the only man for me in my life right now. I am koo' with that. I hope my readers will check out this book since you're adament about pushing it. Have a wonderful day ndcush.

ndcush said...

No I completely understand your mood and praise God you are happy with being single. The book was written and directed towards single christian women no matter what their position in life is. Trust me, you will love and adore it. I am an adament supporter of your work and would not recommend anything that would not contribute to success of it. I know from a "Man of God's Perspective" that the book is mind blowing and it provides spiritual guidance with proof text to all christian women. I also know some very exceptional "Women of God" who Love this book. Loved your last two blogs by the way.

Shay E said...

A classmate of mine referred me 2 ur site...I enjoyed ur blogs especially the one titled Everything happens for a reason, I look forward to reading more...so I will stay tuned!
God Bless..

The You Axis said...

To the new Comment Thank you very very much for stopping by... I look forward to seeing more of your comments. Welcome to Sexy Suburbians.

The You Axis said...

To N D Cush...thankoooooossss. Hope all is well.