Out of the Ordinary

I am not writing this one for it to be all politcally correct or poetry inclined. Im spittin just to spit. For real. Like Im not understanding why the "good girls" are single. Like why dudes, don't want to treat a girl to a nice meal and a great time. Key word is "treat." Like does that not happen anymore or am I going out with the wrong dudes? Somehow we have gotten so far removed from a natural order. Yet I am all for shaking things up a bit, I am a stickler for tradition. Sure break the mold, try something new. Trade places and all that jazz. I love taking, ok maybe not love it. But I don't mind taking a man out and showing him a good time. If I could plan or day or an evening, it would be out of this world. I would show him a side of me and a side of our city he could never imagine. Speaking from experience. Im not the average woman, so I enjoy doing some not-so-average things. I am also one for opportunity. Say I had planned for us to go bar hoppin at some undgerground low key places and in the midst noticed a party bus. Let's get on the bus. We came here for lunch but there are boats nearby...let's get on a boat. We're at musuem downtown for an exhibit premiere and notice a poetry slam...let's go listen to some spoken word. We're walking down the street and tattoos are 75% off...new tatt anyone? See what Im saying. Fun, spontaniety. I have actually been everything a woman can be to man except a wife. I have been the one to get them more intuned to God. I have, printed out college apps, got trade school info, filled out job apps and redone resumes and cover letters. I have treated many a man to movies, drinks, dinner, etc. I've bagged up and made sells. I've been the connect and I've made the connect between the dealer and the connect. I've gotten then in shape. Helped them find the joy in working out and being healthy. I've lowered blood pressure and been a therapist, healer, teacher, mentor. I've been a manager of a staff over 200. I've been to college. Didn't finish, but started. I have been the bread winner. The ONLY one workin. I have been the sexual temptress and pulled out every trick of the trade, every porn star move and I keep lingerie on deck. Trinkets, toys, pornos, lubes, oils, whatever. I have been mother to many a kids that weren't mine. Been to court with the baby mamma and even pleaded with cops and lawyeres. I shied away from "ballers" bc I figure we (my man and I) can come up together. I've witnessed gold digging in action and that have never been my m.o. Im just not built that way. No one has ever helped me get anything. Everything I own, I earned on my own. Aint' a thing in my possesion that I didn't work for for myself. So my question is this. Hard working, smart, single. What???? Im confused. Of all the things I have to been to these underserving men. (didn't know they were underserving at the time) Who is going to be the same for me in return. Can I get spoiled like in the love songs and videos and don't be all turned off by statment. It's just a metaphor. Men have grown lazy trying to blame neo soul and r&b, even some rap for painting this fantacy version of love. My thing is, it can happen. No you probably can't take me shoppin in Milan. But if you know my style, you can pick up something from Urban Outfitters or Victoria's Secret...everyone has a clearance rack so don't even go there. No you can't take me to the most expensice restaurant in town, but you can take me some where I've never been or someplace that you will know will make me smile. No you probably can't buy me a car but you can put gas in mine. And then what is these dudes not being sensitive or too sensitive? Happy medium...oh where are youuuu??? Look, ladies want a man. Not a thug, not a sissy. Don't be actin all tough like a machine. Don't be cold and insensitive. You can't demand I tell you something or do something, bc guess what: this aint on demand!!!...Be gentle. In your words, actions, looks, feedback, opinions. What's with all the sterotypes and judgment? All women this, you women that. I don't wanna hear that shit. Ima need you come and come correct. Don't put me in a box, bc I am everything those lames ass bitches was not. Im a not a hoodrat bc my parents couldn't work things out. I am not less of a woman bc Im not daddy's little girl. I had a string of bad dudes, in my past. And I treat dudes on a case by case basis...new one has nothing to do with the past ones *period* That doesn't meant I don't know how to spot, recognize and it damn sure does not mean I don't know to treat a good man, if and when God sends one my way. If anything, everything I not, made me everything I am. And I will be much more apprecitative of a good man when I get my hands on him. I didn't grow up in a an ideal family setting, but I do know the right way to be a loving wife and wonderful mother. See it's not always what you have or have had that teaches you things. There are no limits on what you can learn if you are receptive to elevating yourself to a higher place. You see what Im saying. There are ways for people to bring the dream to life. You can't affortd Tiffany's but come on...forever 21 makes cute accesories. Sure you men dealing high class dimes who are accumstomed to a certain standard might have to consider a swankier, fancier approach. But my thing is this, you know who dealing with on some level. Im waiting for someone to get on mine. Meet me where I am. You know what I like so provide. Bc trust, w/o doubt if I know what you like and I can claim you as mine...then what you want is provided before you can even ask. That's just how I roll. You wit me, you want for nothing...bc I will your everything and more *period* You know Im a writer you can buy me a journal. Ya dig. You know the kind of music I like, buy me some cd's. You like the Giants...Im sporting a giants thong, giants halter, and making football food in a cheerleading skirt. I mean. Im not high maitenence. I just know what I like. I had to put this out there bc Im a lil frustrated. Im not that hard to please...or maybe I am. IDK. I just know what I like and what I want and had to express it. I know Im not alone.