Too Much is Never Enough

When you can't think. When you can't eat. When they are all you think about. When you are out on a date and you almost, no you do, feel guilty. When you're out on a date and you text them under the table, you call them in the bathroom. When other people catch you reminiscing. When you can't work without looking at the pictures over and over. When all your play lists consist of songs they like. When you assign their picture to pop up when they call but before you give them their own special call tone...it's a surprise when the pic pops up and you thought it was just another call. When all your friends know about them. When you only want to listen to love songs and R&B or rap songs that talk about love, sex or relationships. When you wear what they would like to see you in you in, even if you are not going to see them. When all your girls go oooooooooooooooohhhhh after he just visited you at the office. When you know it's so grown up to keep quiet, but you gotta tell, just gotta tell. When the embarrassment is gone, when the fear is gone, when the nervousness if gone. When you carry yourself different, when you wake up smiling. When you never get tired of having sex with them. When you realize you only want to have sex with that person, nobody else will do. When you get mad because you miss them. When you crave to see them. When you yearn for them. When your soul aches and your heart cries for them. When you gotta keep fakin because spillin the truth might scare them off. When it's in between this and not quite that, but it's so much more than you bargained for. When you hear them on repeat like your favorite song saying nasty naughty things in your ear. When the sex is soooooo crazy good, just right, can't get no better and you don't even want to bathe afterwards. You just lay around in their scent. When you can't stop kissing and touching. When you can't shake 'em find. When you find yourself frustrated because you can't see them. When you realized you've been spoiled. When you smile at the thought of them. You keep telling them over and over how much you love them, but you are not saying out loud. OH NO!!! You are saying it when you look in their eyes and y'all are sharing a pillow all tucked in and ready for bed. You're saying it, by trying to express how much you don't care. You're saying it by jokingly saying the opposite. You're saying it with every ooohhh, ahhhhh and whimper you can muster in between, before, during and after every explosive orgasm. When you don't even take interest in anyone else. You slowly allow your whole squad to disassemble and you don't even think twice about them. Let em roam, you think. Win or go home you say. It's draft season bitch!..and ya'll just got traded. Crown the new MVP of the year. When they take the lead and you never ever saw yourself getting all sucked in. When you least expect it. When they change your mind. When they elevate you, uplift you. When they motivate you and inspire you. When they deepen your purpose in life and strengthen your relationship with God (Whatever God you serve). When you thought you knew it all and you gave up on ever feeling this way. When you chillin and doin you and then find yourself confused.